whats going on.

i walk down the street wondering what the f*** is going on. sometimes i just want to scream out loud at the universe, why am i in so much pain, why do i feel so alone all the time. i am surrounded by people everywhere i go, but i stand alone, in a sea of despair, and sorrow. i look inside myself and see my pain. when i sit among you i scream inside, i yell and cry and curse the world for all it has done to me. i have been abandoned by those i love, every one i meet leaves me and rips me farther apart. i feel as if a knife is being shoved into my heart, and every time i am deserted it is dug deeper. i lie awake at night i cry for in my pain is deeper longing for so much more than i have been allotted in my life.